Beginning again, a year later

It's been a bit over a year since I last told story, making sense of my life.

Interestingly, my last entry was at Mother's Day. I have to say, this Mother's Day was more meaningful and more peaceful yet, than last year's.

I see even more healing today, although I had an unexpected relapse... another bout with the demon of sleeplessness... back in November.

I have become my own parent and let go of the hurts and expectations I have had in my relationship with my mother.

The catalyst for recognizing my growth has been another loss in my maternal family: my mother's remaining full-brother, who passed just last Wednesday. I missed seeing my uncle before he died. I chose to go north and spend a few days with his family anyways.

I am burning a candle for Uncle A, each day that I remember. A candle is probably the most visual way for me to connect with the spirit of a dear one who has departed. It is a powerful way of remembering and reflecting throughout the day....

I just blew the memory candle out, for today. I will relight it again tomorrow.