using all the tools in the box

This is for me a time of year that is already full of change, so I have lost the thread on my blog that was able to look at past story and begin to make sense of it.

Let's just say that the Zena that has perspective is taking a temporary break from being able to make sense of her life and the exact things she SHOULD be doing. Program has something to say, even indirectly about "shoulds"!

I am using all my support tools right now.

After the week my husband took his trip, I took a slip and lost most of my routines. When I lost sleep and had too many midnight thoughts that were not taking me anywhere good, I decided it was time to talk to the good doctors and be willing to go back on medications, for as long as it takes to be able to see the good in my life, without so much wavering in my heart and solar plexus and of course, my overactive brain.

I was programmed for self-doubt by my mom. But I will get past this.

Other tools besides medicines are my program (emotions anonymous). And my appointments with my therapist, as needed.

Exercise. Attention to good thinking and looking for the good.

And being willing to ask for help.

Zena will return in a new form after she gets through this intense time of change.